Let this feeling grow up with its own way.

After several years I feel this feeling again. It’s more common and looks like more elegant but still has a little bit childish. But its quite normal I think and I try to enjoy it.

I didn’t know how I could get that courage to sent such an embarrassed sms to him. But its really out from my hearth and thanks a lot he didn’t think that embarrassing. He just smiled.

Actually I haven’t decided anything yet dealing with my feeling to him. I just let it grow with its own way. And if this feeling is not getting the same response, it’ll be all right… Nothing to lose. I just can say my grateful to HIM who already giving me this feeling. Thanks God .. :)

new step of me

Hi all, long time no see … hehe. Almost one year ago after my last post in this blog. Ok, there are many things happen in my live. After my previous post about disappointed as a job seeker, finally I landed in one of big company in Indonesia. A big one? Hmmm .. probably coz the coverage area of its. Honestly, with his age that become older in each year, I hope this company will get being better forward. Become stronger and wiser I hope.

Jakarta, the biggest city in Indonesia as a capital city of Indonesia, here I am now. Living in boarding house again with my old friends from my lovely school in malang many years ago. In the deepest of my hearth, I wish I could live with my “somebody” next year. Ammeen..

In this office, I’ve a big boss who really idealism. He always supports us (me and my partner) to develop our self in learning Power System which is our core business. It’s something new in our mind off course. But the important thing is we’ve a spirit first. He always gives much advice about many things. He told us to become the leader who always thinking and knowing the exactly what we are doing, not become the follower who always doing something that we don’t know anything about.
Ok sir, we’ll try to do that !

why ..

Failed, again I’ve to heard that. Bad news on Monday. Let me count how much I’ve been failed on facing the test for company recruitment. So much big company I’ve tried to joining. L********a, I*****t, T*******l, P*******a, A*m, H********n and so on. Fyuh .. I’ve been passed so many chances and still not get a success yet.

Can I ask, when that time will come to me ? stupid question I guess. I’m sorry …:( I still can’t realize a big secret behind my failness, why .. why and why ??? Oh my God, help me pls to face this hurt feeling … give me a power to face this situation. I can’t hide this feeling from You .. Please help me .. :(

last hope ?

After joined several test in different companies, I failed again. Tired ? perhabs yes. No much hope, H******** become my last hope. If I still failed again, maybe it’s my destiny, I’ve to face it. No pain no gain, never say stop to step up.

Please be on my side Alloh ..

missing u

Long time no call, no see, I don’t know how are you exactly. Suddenly, I dreamed you last night. Dreamed you, absolutely not an important dream. In my dream, you asked me to meet you and I apathetic refused.

Do you miss me ? hehehe .. wait .. or it’s the opposite, am I miss you ?? Oh God, I’m not sure with my feeling. Missing someone who already with somebody else … is not sounds redicilous ?
Geee … poor of me … again .. :(

jakarta .. again

A few days ago I went to the capital city, Jakarta. For several times I had joint recruitment test in this city, with no success yet. No pain, no gain. I keep on trying. I wouldn’t throw opportunity that given to me. People just trying and praying and we surrender it to the God.

I never imagine to be called by this company before. I often send application since this company opening for job opportunity, including this time. I apply as Business Analyst now. I don’t know much about this job till I found from wikipedia. Hmmm .. a new one for me, a big chalenge. Still intouch with data I guess, but more complex with other resources, departements and solutions of course. People behind the big decision of the company. Hehe ..

If this is my destiny, I hope it will be easier for me to pass away. Help me God…

better in english

I had graduated my study last March. Now, I have no activity after work, just reading some books for relaxing, go to bad earlier, nothing more, so wearied :(
I have some plans to do actually, taking some courses, english is the must and perhabs sewing, hehe.. but i still do nothing until this time whereas time continues to flow. It gets me thinking, it's not good. I’ve to get an action. Find out some information about english course, it's the first step I have to do. English First, so expensive, I have no budget for this.

Google search engine, it's my helper, i found global english site, it’s the good one to make our own progress in learning english and our goals, off course. I take the free trial even it just only for 1 week. And finally, 1-language.com become my choice. I can learn english from beginner until advanced level. The important one is it's free. Hehe ..

Ok, it's time to change be better, let’s start to learning english … :)